With Jesus

no matter what may come my ways,
no matter what i am going through,
with Jesus I can make it.

some friends was very concern about me,
they ask whether my relationship with God still going on?
do i still wait on the Lord for any decision i make?
have i forgotten that God is the Lord of my life?

i just wonder, if i have forgotten God,
can i still survive and live a life that so blessed??
i just receive my result in distric and family medicine posting.
i got a C+, is low actually, but i pass.
i thank God for it, i know how i got through it,
it was His blessing all these while.

hard times and difficult times,
i thank God for it.
yes, i did complain and blaming at first,
but i got to faithful in these small little things,
so that God can entrust me with bigger things!!!

i realize that the first time christian being mention in the bible,
is when they live like Christ, they do what Christ did.
they helps those in needs, they heal the sicks, they cast out demons.
so are we christian??
these gifts are given not only to the apostles but every christians.
we are suppose partaking the divine nature like what the bible say!!
but are we???

long long time

for long not blogging,
that is not the end,
not even the beginning of the end,
rather the end of beginning.

so, here am i, back to shine for Jesus.
this is a new beginning, a new season!!
things of course happen like waves, it haven't stop.
life still in the process of painting.
who hold the pencil?
Noone else but He!!
Thank him that my life is colourful.

what happen is that,
in between the moment of disappearing of Joshua,
he has facing a lot of events that make him feel weak,
but actually make him stronger!!
you will see the one blogging right now is much more stronger than before!!
He was shortsighted and blaiming the One that allow him to go through such a hard time.
to him this is really a hard time!!
but now He preparing to receive the promises that God have make in his life!!
miracles and wonders are not uncommon to him.
He is seeing these as a norm in life!!!
death rises, sick heals, the blind sees..
mountain bow and ocean obey.
Jesus the creator, the hope of glory is within him!!

noone else but He!!

Synergy Concert

wow, synergy concert was great!! God is great!! we are one as we work together for God!!

God give us joy as we serve Him!! It is great to see differents one serving God with patient!!

Let us serve Him with our heart then His joy will be complete in us!!!

bethany

bethany is my second home!!!
i have my brothers and sisters here!!!
we are one big family share the same blood through Jesus!!!
it is so good to be in the family!!!
we are accepting each other as we are.
there are times when we have conflicts
and there are times when we get fun!!!
we are sharing our life together!!!
i thank God for putting different ones in my life,
i also thank God that i can be part of others life!!!
we do have different ideas, opinions and feelings,
so let us share it so that we can be one!!
i am just an eye may be, so i need everyone of you to be whole!!
and let Jesus be the head!! ya!!
let us loves one anothers as Jesus has loves!!!
and let us loves not with words but deeds!!!
i love you all!!!

back back back

hey, some of you have heard me say that when i am back,
there are somethings i need to face, somethings i need to do,
yup, facing it now!!!
i am glad that God is faithful!!!
Anyway, bethany has change alot, trying to fit myself in,
and it take only a short while, here is always my home mah!!!

someone ask me do i have a girlfriend in sibu???
i will have to say no loh!!!
people like me very hard to find one lah!!
hehe, dont make me feel desperate about it!!!
friends all coupling up themselves, young people everywhere also like that!!!
of course i have good feeling toward someone,
but i will always have this in my heart-->
is she the one that God prepare for me??
how to wait and know that she is the one!!
some leaders tell me just guess lah,
some say when the time come you will know!!!
telling my true feeling to you all,
i really dont know how to wait and find for the perfect one,
but i just trust in God!!
do you know that there are times i go by my feeling,
and it fails me!!! it hurts!!!
of course my hormones and my emotions make a lot of control!!!
but i pray that God His spirit govern me and the peace of God guard my heart and mind!!!
i do sin and my mind go wild!!
God loves me and make me strong in each area!!!
i pray that my blog readers will be real as well, do not act like you are so spiritual!!
remind you, we are just human being that need God grace!!
even when we grow older in the Lord, we need even more!!!
God loves you more than anyone else!!
He will be there for you!!

finish 3rd year!!!

just finish paediatric posting!!!
finishing 3rd year!!!
it is all by God grace!!!
i cant do it on my own!!!!

Here in sibu i make alot of new friends!!!
suddenly dont feel like going back to Kuching!!!
i will miss them alot!!!

anywhere see u all in Kuching!!!
for those who are far away from me!!!
Dont worry we are not too far!!!
u will be in my heart!!!

i have been tagged

LAYER 1: ON THE OUTSIDE.
Name: joshua
Birth Date: 19.8.1984
Current Status: Single


LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE.
My Heritage : I'm a MAN
My Fears : alone and dark
My Perfect Pizza :Hawaiian Supreme

LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
My Thoughts First Waking Up : What is plan for today?
My Bedtime : Between 12 and 1am
My Most Missed Memory: have big dreams together with joseph and darren, 'DREAM TEAM' in the basketball world with mervyn, melvin, darren and kenneth..

LAYER 4: MY PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: both
McDonald's or Burger King: never try Burger King, i think i like both, i like KFC most!!!
Single or Group Dates: Group la, i like friends mah
Adidas or Nike: both
Tea or Nestea: both
Chocolate or Vanilla: both
Cappuccino or Coffee: both

LAYER 5: DO YOU...
Smoke: never smoked, i cant stand the smell
Curse: dont like at all
Take a Shower: that is my concert time, i can really sing in the shower!!
Have a Crush: Used to
Think You've Been In Love: wish to
Go To School: Yeah
Want To Get Married: Of course
Believe In Yourself: sometimes i dont
Think You're A Health Freak: yes, i am

LAYER 6: IN THE PAST.
Drank Alcohol: try once not that nice
Gone To The Mall : wish kuching got mall like Midvalley!!
Been On Stage: got fear but have a great memory when i represented 20 leo's club presidents to give a speech
Eaten Sushi: i want to try
Dyed Your Hair: i want to if can

LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER...
Played A Stripping Game: Whats a stripping game?
Changed Who You Were To Fit In: Yeah but that is not me

LAYER 8: AGE YOU'RE HOPING...
To Be Married: 25.

LAYER 9: IN A GUY/GIRL...
Best Eye Colour: shiny and big
Best Hair Colour: black
Short Hair or Long Hair: long

LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING...
A Minute Ago: Completing this tag thing
An Hour Ago: movie and lunch
4.5 Hours Ago: examine a few patients
1 Month Ago: getting ready for cny
1 Year Ago: Not sure, I guess preparing for exam

LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCES...
I love : God, My family, My brothers, my friends, food, sea, 'titanic' ship, nature, travelling, music, helping out, chocolates, pizza, movie,
I hate: Pride, peaple with mask
I hide: my failures, my shame, my hurts...
I miss: my brothers
I need: Be more real and a life partner.

mood like weather

Exam in one weeks time,
i am still dont want to study,
i should say i have not started yet!!!
always feel so heavy to lift up any books!!!
my eyes stick to the movie series!!!
..
what happen to me actually??
anytime my world become stormy,
lightning and tunder come anytime!!!
my mood swing so fast that
sometimes i just doubt my own feeling.
..
i cannot continue like this
or else i cant study lah!!