I AM MORE THAN A CONQUEROR!!

6 weeks has over, another 6 weeks, this surgical posting will end!! what have i learn? do i not work hard enough? No. but it seem like i really dont know anything!! to study in the medical school never a easy job, not only aquired knowledge and clinical skills, also character building. this degree is 2 in 1. if u ask me, do i think of giving up? yes. when i feel frustrated, when the reading works seem like never end, when realize that i dont know even the simple things, when i realize that someone do better than me(is not comparing, but the simple thing that everyone should know, but i dont know), i want to qiut.

when i stay in this giving up state, i foung that i have lost, not only purpose, also hope. where should i go, it seem like no way. one year in sibu, live alone, what else can i do!! yes, christian brothers and sisters will say some encourage words, but how long will i last? it is easy to say all the encouragement, i did that most of the time, but how many times, u will realize that it is not just words. the dissapointment will keep on coming.

i have lost the battle, even when i know that Jesus has won it for me. believing make me blind, i see nothting, cant see him. the peace which was there, some times, it has gone.

HEH, JOSHUA, WAKE UP, FAITH COMES BY HEARING AND HEARING THE WORD OF GOD!! KEEP ON HEARING THE GOOD NEWS!! IF YOU CONTINUE HERING THE LIES OF THE ENEMIES, YOU WILL LOST EVEN WHEN YOU JESUS HAS WON THE BATTLE FOR YOU!!!

AMEN, I AM MORE THAN A CONQUEROR THROUGH HIM WHO LOVES ME.