I AM NOT A FISH!!!

what should i say?
people showing thier real-self--'self-fish'
i am not 'fish', but i begin to become 'fish' as well,
it is not nice to become 'fish'.
people become 'fishy',
what must i did?
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i reliase that i become like them as well,
but i just felt not good,
it is not my councius that tell me,
it is my nature,
i am not a 'fish',
that's why it really make me felt uncomfortable!!
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by now, better dont use the word 'fish',
it is self-fish that i refer to.
some of my coursemates will only think of their benefit,
would do anything to get any opportunity in learning,
trying to grasp as much patients as possible,
sad to say that it slowly everyone become like that.
even the disciple whom Jesus loves, Joshua also become self-fish.
he doesnt like to become like that,
His nature is not fish but fruit of the spirit!!
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He feel bad and he feel scared too because the opportunity will be grasp by others!!
anyway, from now own, i will only rely on God and His truths not the facts.
the facts is people becoming fish, joshua will still the beloved child of God.
He will not be scared or fish anymore, He trust His favor!!
i am not a fish!!!!!!!!!!!